so it's been a couple months
a lot of gigs
and a lot of thinking.

I miss a lot of things from my past. I miss friends, friendships and memories. I miss school.
I've been ecstatically happy (sometimes a little too happy) since my last entry, no one keeps the smile off my face anymore. Cuz life's too short for things to bring you down.
I've learned a lot in 19 years, (not how to budget properly.. but i'll get there), keep those you love close, if you fight sort it out, cuz those people are there for a reason. Love is great, so appreciate it, even when it doesnt turn out the way you want it, and you get hurt. It's all part of the experience and balances out in the end. Money may cause a lot of problems, but it's material.. it may be necessary to get to where you wanna go, part of the journey, creating the luxury or there-lack-of... you might have money, you might be scrapin together for a tin of beans for dinner.

everything's okay in the end, if it's not.. it's not the end.

I'm about to start the next chapter of my life, I couldnt be more ready to leave dublin behind. Moving to Belfast, potentially going to college (if I get my courses or decide what I want to do!), getting a proper job (I wasnt gonna be in Gymboree forever), and planning for the future more so than the immediate future. That scares me still. But I know I have people there for me always no matter what happens and that makes me feel secure, even if we're huddled up in our apartment with 10 blankets cuz we cant afford heating or food.